I haven’t used this for a while and I had thought about axing it but then I thought…nah. It’s still good as a side thing, for all the shorter more random things I have got in my head. It’s still highly won’t be a daily thing, however I will try and make posts a bit more often on this one. And yes I am still at my regular blog, which is still here .
It’s a bit grim outside, but then it’s a bank holiday weekend. We rarely get sunshine.
I ended up staying inside as I’m knackered from yesterday and I’m resting my bad leg. I’ve got my laptop out and I’m looking for something to keep me occupied.
I downloaded the WordPress app onto my laptop.
I’ve decided to have a go at making a bullet journal.
I ordered a notebook and some pens from Amazon. Yeah I know but why not make use of my Prime membership?
I’m probably going to be filling my Twitter with my opinions on the X Factor later. Sorry in advance to anyone who follows me there.
I also need to get the film in my Lomo camera developed at some point.
Tweet from today: “I need a new job. Tbf, I could do with a new everything.”
Reading it back later on, I realise that while I want a new job I don’t know what job I want. Correction: I have ideas of what I’d like to do, but I don’t have a cat in hell’s chance of making a living from it. So I’m thinking again, scanning the job websites and feeling increasingly underwhelmed by what I find.
By now I should have worked out where my future lies. I should be ok with my career and stuff and yet, I don’t feel any more confident of where I’m going with my life than I did when I was in my twenties. Mid life crisis? Nah, I’ve had this a long time. Plus if I am going to have one at any point I’d want it to be a bit more interesting.
Nice to know I’m as confused and clueless as I’ve ever been. I wonder if I can retire now?
The internet is full of inspirational quotes, but very few of them inspire me. Correction: they inspire me to mute or block anyone I see over sharing them.
It’s too hot and I would quite like it to rain right about now. Or at the very least for someone to get a hose and spray me with cold water. Whichever is the easiest thing to do, because I really do feel like I’m melting right about now. I mean, I’m British, living in one of the rainiest corners of the island, I’m not used to this!
No sooner had I got hooked on Pokemon Go, I found myself drawn to Prisma too. The latter is an app that turns photos into works of art, so I ended up downloading it and trying it out once I’d given up hope of catching any more Pokemon one day ( all I was finding was Pidgeys and Rattatas where I was anyway).
I must be, because I’m having a bad week. I’ve been “blessed” with having to do a 44 hour week at work this week, having to cover for two different colleagues. Normally in a situation like this I would still be allowed half a day off during the week, but my manager didn’t want to do anything about it, thus I’m pretty much doing all day of every day of the working week. As if I don’t do enough.
Secondly, my knees are buggered. Yes, both of them. There are times when my right knee comes out in sympathy with my left, arthritis-ridden one when it’s twinging, but today it’s in full on pain too. I haven’t even heard from my rheumatologist yet, which I thought I would have done by now. That’ll be me searching for the hospital number in the next few days, or having to go there as it’s getting to the point where I want to tear my limbs off again.
Thirdly, to cap it all off, I can’t find my phone. I’m pretty sure it’s somewhere in my house or my sister’s and it’s turned off so I can’t even get my mum or dad to ring it to locate it. As a result, I’m scared that I’m going to end up with a load of messages from people wondering what has happened to me or pissed off with me for not responding. The last thing I want is for people to think that I’m being rude, as I never not reply to anything unless I really don’t feel comfortable with the person who’s contacting me.Which reminds me, that person I mentioned in my last post is probably wondering right now what’s happened and has probably bombarded me. I hope they don’t think I’m being a bitch, not that my opinion has changed it’s just that I don’t like upsetting people and they are a friend of a friend.
Having said that, I’m quite happy to be getting some peace right now. So yeah, I suppose I am awful.
I’m getting a bit of attention at the moment, and I’m not sure if I like it or not.
See I went to a little thing that my friend was holding on Saturday. As you’d expect, a lot of the people she knew from work and stuff were there, some of whom I’d met before. Indeed, I encountered again someone that I’d met before and who I’d got on quite well with.
This person has been texting me on and off since I left on Saturday evening. It’s friendly enough, and we have a bit of a joke in between, but there’s a sense that they want a bit more than an exchange of friendly banter. Put it this way, they’ve asked about photos and I get the feeling it’s not a panorama of a landscape. I’ve politely diverted the question and they seem cool with it, but I don’t know for how long. I suppose ultimately, they’re just trying extremely hard to impress but I don’t want to upset them by saying I’m not someone who’s into that sort of thing. Plus they’ve only known me five minutes, well ten I suppose. Surely it’s a bit early for that?
I don’t know what to think.
What if we able to pause life the way we can pause live TV? I’d probably get a lot more stuff done, and be able to sleep for longer. And I wouldn’t get moaned at quite as often.
Today I spent a few hours without my phone turned on. Partly to preserve the battery and partly because I felt like I should begin to use it a bit less. Especially at weekends or any time I have a day off as I can find myself checking twitter, Facebook and all that for a long time when I don’t have anything else to do.
After a few hours with it off, I do feel a bit better. My head feels a bit clearer and I don’t feel as tired. I do feel a bit sorry for the people who have texted me during that time, but be assured I wasn’t avoiding them. I can get back to them in my own time, and it’s not really healthy to be on your phone all the time is it?
I’ll be switching off a bit more often.